Hey babes, let's get real for a sec. 🌸
Today, I want to open up about something that’s been a huge part of my life and has shaped who I am today: my battle with hypothyroidism. Back in my mid-20s, I was living my best life, super active and sporty, when suddenly, out of nowhere, the weight started piling on. Like, seriously—25kg in no time. At first, naive little me thought, “Ooh, bigger boobs, not complaining!” But soon enough, I realized it wasn’t just that—everything was getting bigger. My jeans, my tops, even my face felt different. It was a lot, hun.
I was getting incredibly stressed, depressed, and self-conscious. The bubbly, sporty girl who used to run circles around the other girls on the team couldn’t keep up anymore. And then it got to a point where I was too embarrassed to even try. I remember thinking, “Who am I? This isn’t me.” 😞
What made it worse was this weird period where my confidence just plummeted. People started calling me Millicent again—like, when did I suddenly turn 60? I don't know if it's because my whole vibe became more serious as I fell deeper into this black hole of anxiety, but even I started introducing myself as Millicent. It was like I didn’t even recognize myself, and neither did anyone else. It was such a strange and honestly heartbreaking time in my life.
And babes, if that wasn’t enough, there was this one time I’ll never forget—we were on holiday in Dubai, and someone mistook me for my mum’s sister instead of her daughter. Like, excuse me?! 🫠 Just because I’d put on weight and my spark had dimmed, people thought I was older and, ugh, it was the worst. My self-esteem was at rock bottom, and my anxiety was through the roof. I felt so disconnected from the girl I used to be.
On top of all that, my relationship was falling apart. I had a partner who I thought was my forever person, but when things got tough, he turned out to be anything but supportive. It broke my heart in ways I can’t even describe, but looking back now, I see that it was a blessing in disguise. I needed to lose him to find myself. 💔
Eventually, I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism, and let me tell you, getting on levothyroxine was like seeing a glimmer of light at the end of a long, dark tunnel. But babes, the journey back to myself wasn’t quick or easy. It took time, determination, and more tears than I care to admit. I started slow—short walks that turned into longer ones, gentle exercises at the gym, slowly rebuilding my strength and confidence. It was about putting one foot in front of the other, literally and figuratively. 🚶♀️💪
Now, I’ve lost the weight, and I even went through a breast reduction and augmentation to feel more like me again. I’ve come out stronger and more in tune with my body than ever. And this journey, as tough as it was, made me passionate about being a personal trainer. I know what it’s like to struggle, to feel lost in your own skin, and I’m here to help others find their way, too. Because no one should have to go through that alone.
So, to all the lovely ladies out there, if you’re facing something similar, you are NOT alone. There’s no shame in asking for help or admitting you’re struggling. If you’re dealing with unexplained weight gain, fatigue, or anything else that feels off, go get checked out. It could be something like hypothyroidism, which is totally manageable with the right support and treatment.
And remember, finding your tribe—those who lift you up and love you unconditionally—is crucial. I wouldn’t be where I am today without the love and support of my friends, family, and an amazing healthcare team. 💖
We’re all stronger than we think, babes. Don’t be afraid to take that first step, ask for help, and keep moving forward. You’ve got this, and so do I.
Millie x
留言